NEW YEAR, NAAA, SHOULD BE NEW YOU...

New Year. New Life. New Chapter. New beginning. New discipline. New discovery. New YOU.

Attitude in life is carried through future. There's constant change but there's constant adaptation, wherever you are and whoever you are with. 

Mind your decisions, mind your mind. It should probably be leading you to your dictatorial way of thinking. It directs you to where you should be. And by that, I mean, that is good, you’re the captain of your life!

A lot of new things come into people's minds, but the real score? Only date changes, even people do not change in terms of when this occasion will enter. It all existed in our minds and we can’t control it ‘cause this is a tradition. This is our world and we have to make it worth living into and for. We have to make things happen because the people around us are living with it. It’s a bandwagon!

Here it goes... Kissing and thanking parents, cooking all good dishes, displaying good luck sources, inviting people to come around, partying with family, at 12 am of January of every New Year are not even required but simply, a tradition. It should have a good shot.

Look at what is happening before this is celebrated. The normal routine. And there’s no way that when the first call arrives from January one, it’s 60% possible that we will answer it, but may not listen to it totally, like, 10% or less, non-sense.

I observed that as the day goes by, and this year ends, it will be the same cycle, the money, mood, feelings, people, acquaintances, dreams and real life goals. It's just that we think straight forward as if we can be NEW US within a day. The last day of the year's last month has nothing to do with change, change begins when we're absolutely ready for it.

The catch is the progress. I go for progress, we don’t actually change but we strive, hard, to make things happen. To develop skills and talents in us. We try to indulge ourselves to an activity we’ve never been before, think of new things to be learned and ask how you are going to enjoy it, how are we going to make it work?

Well, simple, put your heart on it, set your mood, and choose the people who you want to face in that moment. The passion to do new and amazing things are driven by our mentality that it improves us, it empowers us, it gives us new beginning. That this life introduces us every time to doors that are newly opened like a brand new house, car, and a lot!

And I love being introduced to anything, I like new, I like the future, I like to meet people and get acquainted with the old ones. Best things in life are free, we should all be dreaming on. Continue the goal we thought we’ve been missing.

I have never thought of leaving at least a piece of my dream there, hosting, talking in front of the camera, acting, writing, and singing. No, not yet, now I have to begin moving, competitors are everywhere, in fact, they are always there, the target goal could be affected, guard your ways, guard your plans and strategies, before we all end up in the moment where we’re stuck and can’t breathe.

And when it's a new year, there should be maturity. Not a change entirely.

When it’s love, it’s might. You're cooking and thinking of the next celebrations with someone, taking them to your house and have a family meet-up. Weew. Just because, Wayne Dyer said, "the real magic in relationships means absence of judgment of others." Therefore, you won't be bothered what to wear and how to move, like piece of Santa's daughter.

And there I thought of my cousin Ann. She’s like me and I’m like her. We’re alike and we do love partying alone, when we smoke what we smoke, we talk about what we want to talk about, love, confusion, people, men, life. Well I’ll go with men and life. They’re good partners, like lasagna supreme and iced tea. We lead the group to partying and laughing, we both entertain like heaven. But there are also differences, I don’t cook and she does, I’m not a family girl, she is. I’m a career woman and she’s a good supporter, I’m active she’s passive. LOL. We’re good partners, in crime and laughter. The attitude is complicated though, bitch in short.

This New Year, no plans of change. Just me. My annoying eyebrows and petite body. Pretty face, yea, they say. The fireworks boom here and there, I talked to a girl named Paris and she’s a speaker of the English Language. At six, I have to say she’s a bitch, but I got to be friends with her, Meagan and Ann are now part of her list before 2016.

We were trying to look for shot buddies, two cool guys came over and ate, no alcohol right now, this is a good mood year I think. The moon and star beside it smiles back at me, and they’re talking to me while we’re looking for my sister in the boulevard, it says, “your life will be at its brightest.”

Underneath my castle where I rest, I’m still wondering what it would be like when I finish my thesis, graduate, apply into jobs online and walk in to call centers in Makati or Quezon City, enter into a corporate industry, start business, grow a company, continue working with my art, in lyric writing and organizing parties, music. I want to live my life like fairy tale as much as I want to live my life like a party with the loudest music that can be played.

How I look forward into the future, the progress, the independent life. I want to travel the world, put up a house in it, marry at 27 and have four kids, two boys and gals. It’s different, I’m dreaming and daydreaming a very beautiful life ahead.

But I’m thinking too much of myself, what have I done that I want to make all these things fast, sustain the idea that I just have to help out my family and be good to all the people around me. They love me or hate me, and that’s a part of a growing mind, I keep up with the trend, that progress is the catch, courage and heart are the driving tools and the move to all the dreams is 95%, don’t be stuck, don’t get laid, try to be a bad person sometimes, choose when to make your ego big and small. Face the truth, the reality, why? I’m an optimist and realist, I will face ‘what is’ and work with the ‘what if’s’.

Now I’m playing my covers and songs on the radio, I admire what I do, I hope the others will. Because it’s heaven when you get to hook the people with your music and style. When you don't have to explain something because your built identity says it all, you’re yourself, you’re a real star girl, you’re different, from all the Hollywood stars and indie stars, give a worthy view to yourself, a reflection that will last until you reach the peak of your life.

I’m young, and by heart, I’m mature and old.

Happy New You!

TO THE MAN I LOVED

Once, in the kingdom of my prince, he spoiled me with everything he had. But I don't need much, just a long drive in a long road from a long weekend-off.

So here, I am going back to the past. Because it was still wonderful after all...

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I throw my hands on air and I kiss the light of the sun, my clothes drenched with sweat, behind the window of the car, I enjoy the heat of summer, bodies and heads heat up, and it's a good time to make time. You know what I mean.

I could spend my life forever in his throne. He's not Romeo and I'm not Juliet. I'm not a descendant of the Capulets either. So there’s a big possibility that we could be together, forever.

These lines might be quite mainstream, but you'll definitely love hearing it from your man. Love someone and you'll feel rich and enriched. Spirit fed with love and life filled with hope. Isn't it amazing I am discovering and revealing these things at the same time? Because of love?

As I learned from a movie recently, that in love, you’ll always win, because it will always leave a piece of you knowing what you need to know about loving and giving. Teaching you how to be stronger and better for your love.

Just because, having a relationship that works out is all that matters. You see the sun, you see the light, you feel not blue, but feel red, feel the passion and reside in what you're feeling. And what is absolutely good with that is it does not only uplift one's spirit and confidence, you'll also feel secured and fastened in your love's arms.

Every word he says is sexy, his smile is playful but I can still read what type of smile it is. Yes, definitely, you can be a psychologist and a very good researcher when you're in a mature love affair. Your psyche works  well with your eccentricity and ego. It develops your mundane mutations and it's wonderful.

In the car, as the driver drove us home, he held my hands and I held his, tight that I don't even want to let go. His right hand on my shoulders and I see the world and earth and everything beneath it outside the window. What I mean is you'd see the deepest worth of everything if you're with the person who makes you feel fearless!

This feeling, I should say, is irresistible, unexplainable. Though I have some issues with his temper, I stick with it, stay high and stuck in his side. And our line goes, "no matter what."

I might work away from him, I have to, and he's there. He supports me. He protects me and reminds me of what I should remember, what to say and not to say. And I know this memory of mine's sometimes forgetful yet mindful of her actions. I got to love it!

His being paranoid bothers me too much but as long as I assure him that all's well, then all'll be well. Assurance of love for each other is a strong armor, better not skip it, keep it, never delete from your vocabulary as a couple or partners.

So here, we got off the passenger seat, it's full and he didn't like it, he freaked out, then we landed in an air-conditioned one, we were laughing 'cause he acted insane and it was not really that serious. 

He jokes around and makes me laugh, now he can make me do anything for him already. Like he could be my boss. And I am his as well. How's that going?

It was perfect. We don't insist on things that we want, we insist in things that we need to agree upon.

Assure, agree, approach, talk, and love. Kiss every weather that comes along, whether it be rain or summer as long as the love is in the air, you'll live with it, like a burning coal.

So... Never mind our bus trip you guys, actually, it was just a set example that wherever you would go with someone special in your life, you'll always be reminded of life's glory and beauty. And there never will be a time in your life that you'll waste and have desires unfulfilled, because you have it all and you're keeping an eye on it.

When you're in a mature love, when you feel confident and fearless and secured. It means seeing your best with that person. That you can be you when you’re with him only.

Right.

***Present time***

I’ll just leave these here and start o live again. I am genuinely happy.

21

21 Things for a twenty one year old me and other 20-something girls out there

Here are 21 earned life hacks from the time I separated myself from home:

1. Not everything is for you, not everyone's with you. But it’s possible to have a little bit of everything, it just needs a little workout though.

2. Youthful years might fade soon, yet if you live gracefully, it’ll sure keep you hanging with the things you’ve done through your youthful years when you get older. It’s either laughing at them or crying over them.

3. You'll be having insecurities - normal, but being able to conquer these is rare and being able to get away from them is bravery.

4. Being a college graduate at nineteen while having earned a latin honor is a possibility. And I made it! At an early age, though some say a late bloomer am I, I’d still say I got alone to where I am now. And I’m enjoying life like I never had it before. It’s different of course; it’s only me now. 

I think there will be three stages of living life in terms of stages and ageing.

1.    When we were young and with our parents’ house.

2.   When we got a li’l older and we either rent an apartment, condominium or purchased a house and live to the fullest;

3.   When we become more mature and be with our own family and well, think only about family now. I might consider a fourth one, growing older with your grandchildren, picturing yourself in a couch or in a rocking chair and reading a book or listening to the radio playing music you used to play either with the person you were so in love when you were like, eighteen maybe? LOL

5. Hardship can be at the beginning or latter part.

A short explanation on this one is that no one starts big but if you think of starting big for something big already, then you should be ready for the consequences on the latter part. I mean, getting hard on the first part is hell, but in the long run, it'll be easier as you practice the do's and don'ts over time. Compared to getting all the hang of your dreams, you’ll end up being addicted to it (this is the bad part) or boosting your passion more (this is a good thing).

6. It's not always fate, it's also your choices and your faith with those choices that bring you to where you will be someday.

7. It's not what you earn that matters, it's what you save out of what you earn and how you build something out of it.

8. It's not the social media nor the people around you, it's just you baby. Adore you, be you. Now, think about social media as a channel for you to market how happy one person like you can be. Inspire, congratulate, admire, adore, ignore if beed be how people post for themselves. That’s how social media should work, I believe.

9. Never think that you're still young and that others should take care of you. At 21, knowing how to live independently should be the ultimate goal already. It is a must for a person not to think of life as a joke but a total ground where practical training is always applied. And I bet, the things that you’ll learn as you age are not from the things that you learn from school, it’s the things that you learn from yourself, other people and the things that happen around you.

10. Getting a life insurance is an option, though I now think of it as a necessity because I am looking forward to early retirement. Aside from considering it as an investment, you could turn out all that you’ve put there into a business.

11. Planning ahead is a smart choice. Yet I still am one of the millennials whose choices are vulnerable and whose decisions are easily changed, yet, the best of it is still doing something out of it.   I learned from someone that it’s not important what you went through before getting to where you want to be, what’s important is, you get to go where you actually planned.

12. Shop wisely. Dream of a car, a house, one day. Because the truth is, you're young and you've got the time to make it a point wherein you'll know more, better and be more absolute with the things you think about.

13. Having your own family is probably the cutest thing you could ever imagine. Why? Because babies are always adorable aren't they? I just don't know when they grow up. Haha!

14.These days are the most aggressive days according to most of the people I know that I'm even told by my parents to go slow and that I'm young (but I don't think I am already). LOL. Also, as much as possible, involve yourself in the big picture. The future. The fast paced industry. Deal with what's foreign to you and people that are in the same circle with you. If you belong, then you can be the big thing.

15. Just know that communication is definitely the way to explaining yourself up, your abilities and your personality. And when you're considered good at it, then you're in the market!

Second to that is dressing yourself up, matching it with confidence and style totally defines your character.

16. If you can, don't opt for 2 faces, you might get different sometimes, but don't make the change a big one. Make sure that it'll still be you.

17. While you're as young as seventeen, be a leader, be the theater producer, the theater actress, be the best actress in a lead role on an inter-college film making campus competition. Be it. Find yourself as early if possible. If not, again, always think that everyone has his/her own timeline.

18. Be the princess you've always been since you were born. You're a girl, girl. Therefore, you deserve all the beautiful things in life. And you have to make it yourself to have it personally designed, not imitated.

19. Be creative in your own way. I do write songs and do blogging, been doing these since seventeen. I don't get paid for it, I hope one time I will be, but I am contented creating and doing just like that right now.

20. Engaging in parties are absolutely not a sign that you're one of the trends. What about talking to adults and still be at pace with them even if they are talking about their kids and family? I think that would be better.

21. Be a bitch if you need be. Be knowledgeable enough, be insensitive enough of the useless talks of the crowd, be brave enough, just because, you're a young woman. Love enough (make sure to look before you fall) and be friendly enough that your presence brings real tense to everyone. And that makes you feel that your existence is important and that it’s a beautiful magic affair enjoying yourself, at 21.

 

Me on a staycation.

Me feelin' like a fairy in one of Calamian Islands

Dog lover island hopping in Coron.

P.S. check more of my pics on my IG @meaganmangoma. Thank you! 💕